Heart flutters

I really hate the part when after having made a good effort @ avoiding distracting destroying my feelings for someone - I start over with just the same feelings  with maybe even more intensity than before.

A combination of butterflies in stomach & a little occasional heartbreaks.

Its not easy to survive that amalgamation.

I can be.

I can still live a better life. I can still raise my own standard. My own ability , capablity & confidence.

I can be - whatever I want to be.

And I must strive for excellence. Life is gotta be beautiful. Even if it ain't naturally too pretty.