Thinking about you derails me.

Its like a opening up a Pandora box.

It hits so badly , it hurts.

Like rubbing salt on wounds.

Like choking.

While there was a time when  I used to spend hours just revisitng those conversations and moments..I've reached a point now where I absolutely DREAD to think about you.

Because I know its like a never ending loop and I'll only be trapped in a maze of confusion pain and ridicule.

I dread you.