No I'm not strong. Specially if I'm back to square one.

And I begged you not to be indifferent. Just that much. Not asking for more.


You care for me is not enough for me. You've gotta be there too.

Don't fuck my feelings.

I can't live on my dad's expenses.
I feel so suffocated ....

I'm not feeling good.
despite the trip planned.

something pinches.

Its happening again. Everytime I think I'm over him...the bloody hell I like him even more than before.

Its uncalled for.

E FRIEND

You have no idea what so ever that I've been saving our chats. I used to. Each one of them.

I lost a lot of those chat logs because I thought they were saved on the messenger. I regret that.

But as many as I have - are precious to me.

I read them often. It really breaks my heart to know that that friendship somehow unknowingly dissolved.

You an incredibly awesome person!

Very very dear to me.

Very very special.

I wish I get to talk to you like it was earlier :)

Heart flutters

I really hate the part when after having made a good effort @ avoiding distracting destroying my feelings for someone - I start over with just the same feelings  with maybe even more intensity than before.

A combination of butterflies in stomach & a little occasional heartbreaks.

Its not easy to survive that amalgamation.

I can be.

I can still live a better life. I can still raise my own standard. My own ability , capablity & confidence.

I can be - whatever I want to be.

And I must strive for excellence. Life is gotta be beautiful. Even if it ain't naturally too pretty.