heartbreak.

I don't know if am being any good help to you. But I can only suggest you to FORGET. I know its difficult..and you are hurting but thats the only option.
Human behavior is something you can do nothing about.
Someday you'll get your answers..or maybe not.
But it'll be allright.
Because Until then all of this would stop mattering.

today was probably the last k
Why just probably. It certainly was.

Deleted all the chats. trash emptied too.

No hard feelings. That's important.

cannot force people to love you back . Let it be that way.

no kids

We have a pact.
My sister and me.
We have decided to never have kids after getting married.
Like atleast not untill we are 30-35.

You don't get to choose. You just fall.

When I fell for you ...having known the infeasibility of our togetherness..I wondered if I'l ever be able to have such strong feelings for someone again. I doubted it.
I was not scared to like someone again. I just doubted feeling so passionately for someone.

Then , I met you. And I liked you instantly. And long before I knew it , I did fell for you. There was a connection..an attachment I couldn't resist or ignore.
And it was so strong that the only way I could get over you was to avoid you. To scrap you from my world.
because I knew we wouldn't ever be together.

in both the cases...I had my feelings last not for days weeks or months...but years.
And it only grew with time.

Now when I have finally decided to move on because I have no choice...I again wonder if I'll feel for someone with such intensity ever again.
just because I did find someone after the first heartbreak to give my heart out to ..doesn't mean I'll be able to repeat the same.

I just hope I do fall crazily and madly. More than there was for you.

but even before that...I do not want absence to make the heart grow fonder.

I just don't want you in my life.

So please...just go away....

come on..this time.....made a choice..

Now


Stick

to it!!