Sometimes your  relation with someone is so perfect , so dear that if you wanna  avoid it from getting spoiled...

You have to break it.

So that a relation so beautiful and consequent to its beauty - so vulnerable ; doesn't induce any amount of complexity and hatred.
 So that it doesn't sew any unnecessary stories.
And so that its charm doesn't diminish.

Such a relation is so pivotal , the more you hold onto it..the more it slips away from you.
So you have to let go and let it be.

Because wanting more out of that precious thing will outworn it.

Its heart-wrenching.

And yet unknowingly it will heal many hidden wounds. 

We were never quite on the same page. That hurts.

You don't understand me. And guess what ? You never really tried either. That hurts.

 I put a lot of my heart into you. That hurts.

I thought you put just as much your heart into me. But that was never the case. That hurts.

One doesn't have to be in love to get hurt. Loving someone to want them by your side and spend time and yet none of that happening ..well yeah that hurts.

trade off

The heart is never wrong.

Its probably the brain doing all the talking.

But the heart doesn't lie.

It will never cheat on you.

Its your own wish fullness that cheats you.

What you want.. against what you're actually getting.

*** Thank you for everything. And yet , no thanks.

Burn with me

Feel my pain.

Let the flames engulf you.

Let the fire pierce through your deepest wounds.

Scream aloud.

 

Burn.Fire.Kill.You.

How much can you empty yourself out.

On Hold.

Its is  wicked how I think of you at weird moments.
While tying the shoe laces.
While filling the water cooler.
While flipping channels.

No matter how much I deny myself a right to relive the memories..I still find myself thinking about you - almost like a lightening bolt - all of a sudden , fierce and scary - a pang so powerful it drains me out.

You take away the smile from me.

It is raining. I hate to think of you when I watch the sky drizzling.

It reminds me of a time dimension when nothing had happened.

When I would crave for you just as much as I did yesterday or maybe even today.

You fill me up with a heavy heart.

A burden so strong...the rain from my eyes begin to pour down.

Tell me why you're gone.

Tell me why haven't you withdrawn.

Uncanny silence.

My heart is thumping loudly.

Is it grieving ?

Perhaps , bleeding.