Bittersweet

There is this sinking feeling inside today and strangely it is bittersweet.
I want to cry out. Only that I'm not sure what I'll be crying for ?!

Magnet

There is a mysterious force that keeps me glued to you.
That makes you my magnet.
That doesn't let me let go.
No matter how hard I try.
Maybe ..
I only pretend to try.
Because deep down..
I don't wanna let go.

I'm selfish. I don't give two hoots about the hurt & pain you caused me.
I still want to be with you.

No I'm not strong. Specially if I'm back to square one.

And I begged you not to be indifferent. Just that much. Not asking for more.


You care for me is not enough for me. You've gotta be there too.

Don't fuck my feelings.

I can't live on my dad's expenses.
I feel so suffocated ....

I'm not feeling good.
despite the trip planned.

something pinches.

Its happening again. Everytime I think I'm over him...the bloody hell I like him even more than before.

Its uncalled for.

E FRIEND

You have no idea what so ever that I've been saving our chats. I used to. Each one of them.

I lost a lot of those chat logs because I thought they were saved on the messenger. I regret that.

But as many as I have - are precious to me.

I read them often. It really breaks my heart to know that that friendship somehow unknowingly dissolved.

You an incredibly awesome person!

Very very dear to me.

Very very special.

I wish I get to talk to you like it was earlier :)