letting you go off is getting difficult..am holding you back tight with all the memories wrapped around...why would you hurt me so much..why would you not care once....

You drilled a hole in my heart.

I'm not afraid that I won't fall in love.

I'm afraid that I won't be loved back.

Again.

And he comes back.

Why are you back ?

And why can't I resist you  even now?

Thinking about you derails me.

Its like a opening up a Pandora box.

It hits so badly , it hurts.

Like rubbing salt on wounds.

Like choking.

While there was a time when  I used to spend hours just revisitng those conversations and moments..I've reached a point now where I absolutely DREAD to think about you.

Because I know its like a never ending loop and I'll only be trapped in a maze of confusion pain and ridicule.

I dread you.

My first reaction was of utter disbelief quickly replaced by 'ofcourse , its believable'.
Wasn't expecting a rapid change.
For a long time after that...I didn't know how to feel.
I was numb.

Embracing myself with a smile...and letting it go.

:)

I ditched my morals ethics and values in the face of temptation.
I do not regret.
But yes , it kind of hits somewhere.

And finally its all over. I dont know if I'm supposed to congratulate.