no kids

We have a pact.
My sister and me.
We have decided to never have kids after getting married.
Like atleast not untill we are 30-35.

You don't get to choose. You just fall.

When I fell for you ...having known the infeasibility of our togetherness..I wondered if I'l ever be able to have such strong feelings for someone again. I doubted it.
I was not scared to like someone again. I just doubted feeling so passionately for someone.

Then , I met you. And I liked you instantly. And long before I knew it , I did fell for you. There was a connection..an attachment I couldn't resist or ignore.
And it was so strong that the only way I could get over you was to avoid you. To scrap you from my world.
because I knew we wouldn't ever be together.

in both the cases...I had my feelings last not for days weeks or months...but years.
And it only grew with time.

Now when I have finally decided to move on because I have no choice...I again wonder if I'll feel for someone with such intensity ever again.
just because I did find someone after the first heartbreak to give my heart out to ..doesn't mean I'll be able to repeat the same.

I just hope I do fall crazily and madly. More than there was for you.

but even before that...I do not want absence to make the heart grow fonder.

I just don't want you in my life.

So please...just go away....

come on..this time.....made a choice..

Now


Stick

to it!!