Its tough. And it hurts. I cry at the drop of  a hat.
And I cry more thinking it must be hurting you on a much deeper level.

What a roller coaster it has been!!

From hating to loving you back.

From your ignorance to your care for tiny things.

You cut through my heart at ease. Your every little gesture does that to me.

But above all..love transcends time & space.

its fucking crazy.

Its crazy that I have capacity to love so much again.

Its crazy that I shocked myself out to know I love you anymore yet.

When I see you in the eye , I can catch the ghost of our past.
I can see how  you feel.
But to live it..I want to drown in your soul. Get into your head.
Beat in your heart.
I want to become you and feel what you feel for me.
I want to test your pain for me.
So that when am myself again..I can ease it.
And bring our past to peace.

If there were a 100 ways to hurt me..I'd bet he wld find all those 100s to rattle my soul.

we never know what can hurt us - untill it does

vulnerability

Is like fighting to stand still in gushing winds..

Is letting him use those 100 ways...